Post by elliot johnathan kennedy on Nov 10, 2012 15:52:17 GMT -7
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image:url(http://www.textureaday.com/wp-content/uploads/wpsc/product_images/wood-0004-600.jpg); width: 437px; padding-top: 30; padding-bottom: 30;] ELLIOT JOHNATHAN KENNEDY  BRANDYEON | NINETEEN | WESTERN CANADA | 7 YEARS ELLIOT'S SUICIDE NOTE - 04/18/07 Dear Mom, This isn't your fault, this is no ones fault but my own. I simply cannot handle life anymore. I've never been hurt or teased more than i've brought it upon myself. I figure eighteen years has given me enough time to know the world for what it is. But i can't be here anymore. Colorado isn't the place of peace people make it out to be. I love you and E both so much and i wish you two the best on the rest of your life, but that life is going to have to be without me. You'll forever be in my heart, love you, Elliot VOICE MAIL TO "MOM" - 04/18/07 - 8:59 P.M. "Mom! Answer your fucking phone! It's Ester, i'm calling from Elliot's phone. He's messed up on pills. I called an ambulance, we are going to the hospital. You need to come now, and i mean now. He tried to kill himself mom. Please, just answer your fucking phone, this is the fourth time i've called you." VOICE MAIL FROM "HOSPITAL" - 04/19/07 - 11:34 A.M. "Hello, it's to my understanding that this number is Elliot's but is currently being used by a Miss. Kennedy? I'd like to inform you that Elliot is under full recovery and will be doing just fine. He'll be released this afternoon. When you stop by the hospital we will have more details on further actions that will be made to keep him stable." After Elliot's unsuccessful attempt at suicide, police and doctors talked to his sister as well as his mother as they were mentioned in his suicide letter as well as to get a good idea of who he was and the people he surrounded himself with. This is what they told him: Ester (Sister): "He's my brother... i don't know exactly what else to say. He never got to meet his father. I knew dad. Dad hung himself while mom was still pregnant with Elliot. I was six at the time. Sometimes i think that since Elliot never knew his father it's a little hard for him but i wouldn't say that it is everything. I've heard that depression can run in the family and i guess you could assume that this is what this is. Elliot's never told me that he's been picked on, at least not since middle school. There used to be one kid that would bug him about his hair but after a few years that guy buggered off. I know Elliot's been talking about getting out of Denver ever since he was fifteen. He said that he wanted to go somewhere on the coast and feel free. I don't blame him. I think it might be because of his anxiety issues and his weird claustrophobic tendencies. Denver isn't exactly the best place for someone that needs to be in a vast area. He and i talk quite a bit about that stuff... and maybe that's what he needs is to get out of here and get out of the state... or even the country. I don't know what else you really want me to say about him." Georgia (Mother): "My boy... i named him after his father, Johnathan. Johnathan Elliot Kennedy. They look so much alike. The day Elliot was born i saw something so beautiful, so sincere, just like how his father used to look before he died... He's just such a nice boy. I don't know why he would do this. He's been so kind, and happy to the community. He'd come to church and sing in the choir with me and everyone loved him. I don't know why he'd try to do this to himself, or to me. After everything i've been thought i would never think that he'd try to do this to me." Once Elliot got through graduation he decided to finally tell his mother he applied to go to university in Canada, in a town called Royal. He wasn't sure what exactly he was going to study but he was accepted for the Winter Semester since he sent in an application so late. He moved in August to a place he had found to live on his own for a bit and he found a job he could work until classes started for him. His mother and sister both stayed in Colorado. For almost four years Elliot's panic attacks have been minor and he has had no need to be sent to a hospital or seek medical attention. VOICE MAIL TO "MOM" - 01/06/12 - 12:31 P.M. "Hey mom, i guess you're not in but it's probably easier to say this in the two minutes i have on voice mail. I'm just going to come out and say this, i'm done school. I went to the registry office and told them i needed to drop out. I know you want me to do something more with my life than deliver pizzas, but i have to do this for now. I'll go back to University when i can. But i'm staying in Royal, i don't think i need to go back. I like it here. But i'll talk to you when ever your in. Sorry if i disappointed you, love you." VOICE MAIL TO "ESTER KENNEDY" - 01/06/12 - 12:36 P.M. "Hey, girl, i called Mom but she wasn't home. I told her i dropped out. Don't call me a coward or anything but it was easier talking to the answering machine than to her directly. I'm not looking forward to the phone conversation. As soon as she finds out it was my anxiety attacks that made me drop out she's going to try to force me to go back home. Thank you for not telling her anything... actually thank you for everything. You're the best. I'll see you when you come out, love you, Sis!" VOICE MAIL FROM "W. BECKETT UNIVERSITY" - 01/10/12 - 10:07 A.M. "Hello, Mr. Kennedy, we'd like to confirm that your paper work is to be handed in this following Friday in order for us to reimburse you for not attending your second semester here. As soon as you can get time we'd like to hear from you. Thank you and have a nice day." VOICE MAIL FROM "KIRKLAND ACADEMY" - 05/19/12 - 09:16 A.M. "Hello, Mr. Kennedy this is Debra from the Register's office of Kirkland Academy and we would like to inform you that your Winter's application has been received and accepted. We can't wait to have you as a part of our talented bunch. You can register your classes online. An e-mail has been sent to you with further information. We'll see you in January 2013! Have a good day." HANGING ON THE EDGE OF HEAVEN |
